Reflection

Dear Diary,

Actually I had no intention to be blogging now... however, somehow when I heard this theme song for the cartoon Mulan which Shaunna Simon sang in "Live the Dream" on TV just now... couldn't help heaving a sigh. This is such a wonderful song by Christina Augilera! So nice that I replaced the song on this blog with it. Sometimes, I wonder how many hours of the day I actually show who I am inside me. There is always some challenge in work and because of my position, I have to take charge control of my feelings, my spontaneity, my giggles, my laughters, my expression...

Had to rush off to another outlet today early in the morning, to help the new pharmacist with her stock-take. I think that lovely internal auditor kinda know me well now after I went to help out in a couple of stock-takes under her charge. I guess I love to whine, haha... was telling her how "sian" I am to be doing stock-takes for other pharmacies! The new pharmacist was observing so I had to be a little more restricted in expression.

The "true" me inside myself loves to raise my hand, to interject, to suggest alternative views, to protest... but I can't really do it! Not at work. Not even at church! Love to go to church but still feel a little restricted because everyone seems like the "holy holies", haha... However, if you really know me on a personal level, you will know I have a "child" in me. That is why if you see me in my "child-like" state, it is really me and I am enjoying myself! =) I am pretty mischievous at home, haha... In recent history outside of home, it would have been when I was a preceptor, haha...

One locum pharmacist once said that I am very friendly but can sometimes look very stern, haha... That's life! I need to look a little stern at times to make sure I can still get things done and not be a push-over! ;-) Anyway, I will leave with you the lyrics of this beautiful song.

REFLECTION by Christina Augilera

Look at me
You may think you see
who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool
my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I have to
hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must
be free to fly
That burns with a need
to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

Hope we can all be true to ourselves someday! ;-)

God Bless,

Andrew