Monday, 26th May 2008

Dear Diary,

There are just so many things to share over this past week but yet as I sat in front of my laptop… I was at loss of how I should start! It was just as difficult as yesterday when I typed the letter which would change my life. The letter was just one-page long but yet a blogger like myself could not complete it in one solid hour! I haven’t taken a single medical leave since I started my first job in my life in this company. Now, I am just two months away from making this an everlasting record… Get the hint?

This morning, I took a bus down to a pharmacy at Bugis Junction. Spoke to my colleague and his student. Then I sent an email with an attachment of my resignation letter. It was short and without fanfare. Yet, it was an action which I struggled. I knew I had to do it anyway. I thank God for my boss, my colleagues, my work, the joy and tears of working in this organisation. I will now be serving my two months’ notice before I leave for my new job. I bade my colleague and his student farewell. This colleague is someone I cherish since my university days. He told me that I am really a trailblazer. Oh well… ;-)

I went to the National Central library and completed reading the book “Making Room for life”. The book didn’t seem all that interesting after all. Maybe it was my mood… hmmm… as I left the library and walked down Victoria Street aimlessly, the bells of a nearby church rang. It was 1pm. I decided that I could just pop in to sort my thoughts a little. I stepped into the Cathedral of the Good Shepherd for the first time in my life. The Roman Catholic cathedral isn’t as grand as that of St Andrew’s Cathedral but I was astonished by the huge attendance there on a Monday afternoon. The confessionals were occupied as I watched people filed into the church. The Mass went on and the priest spoke on the gospel story of the Rich Young Ruler. The take-home message was whether God is first in my life. Am I like the Rich Young Ruler who might keep all the commandments of God but was still very attached to the things of the world? I really need to examine my life more these days.

Anyway, over the last week… I brought a student (not my own student though) to check out my church just before pharmacy practice meeting, and was pleasantly surprised when she asked about attending my church service. So I attended the earlier service with her on Sunday yesterday. I really pray that God can draw her to Him. May she see the love of God and the sacrifice of Christ for all of us. As for my own student, I am so sorry that I demoralised her with my resignation. She is, after all, my last pharmacy student in my life. As for the other one I am supposed to be taking one month later… I doubt the company will let me take her. So Choon Pei will round up the four students I took, with the other three; Constance Jeanne, Choon Han and Lin Qun from last year’s batch of students.

I must keep myself motivated because I still want to do something for my department in terms of strategic planning. I also want to look after my last student well, making sure she gets the most out of the attachment. Then as my tenure in this company draws to a close, I will be looking forward to a job that pays well but expects a lot too. It will be a job that I have no experience to speak of. A job that is challenging and I have better pass their 6-month probation. Maybe if I cope well in this new job, I can embark on a part-time postgraduate study that I have been postponing all these while. I am anticipating to contribute more time to church, charity, family, friends and maybe even a girlfriend? That is if I can attract anyone, haha… I am so “looking forward” to the possibilities of an uncertain, uncharted future! Yay!

That’s me! Goodnight. =)

God Bless,

Andrew