The Chronicles of Thoughtology

Dear Diary,

Just came back from a stroll at the Botanical Gardens, and the oxygen generated from the photosynthesizing plants seem to clear my mind a little, haha... Yesterday had been pure madness with one thing after another cropping up in sucession. Phone calls poured in and I had to rush from the Biopolis to a veterinary clinic, then to Mount Alvernia and to the office. Then to another company whom we employ for our packaging needs. I was driving everywhere and of course, I visited to petrol kiosk for a refill. Sometimes, I wonder what's all the hecticness leading me to. I am pretty goal-oriented I guess, but yet I do question what is really troubling me subtly.

As I was on the road yesterday, I thank God for my GPS navigation system because despite my poor knowledge of the streets, I could drive around independently without much stress and enjoying new sceneries around me. It is in this little moments of peace that I realised I hardly give credit to God for the good things in my life. I guess it is human to forget about God when we are fine and well... However, we are supposed to be aiming to be "Christ-like" over time. Maybe this financial crisis hitting the world will remind many not to put their trust in the things of this world but in the things eternal. It is always easier said than done. I chatted with a vet at a clinic and checked out their dispensary which had a collection of familiar drugs. Animals use pretty much similar drugs as humans except for the dosing. I could see that the vet enjoys her work. In Singapore, so many times, people work because of the money. Few ever work because of passion and interest. It is the way we are brought up but then again, that is not an excuse.

Yesterday, I was helping to put up some posters and stood on top of a chair which I would be sitting on later. A female colleague commented, "Hey, won't it be dirty when you stand on it with your shoes? How are you going to sit on it?" I told her that it is okay. Then when she told me that another female colleague would be sitting on this chair after me, I replied casually, "My pants would have wiped clean those dust by the time she took over." At this moment, she told me that she chose a Singaporean boyfriend precisely because of that reason. Because we are "dirty"? Or "manly"? Hahaha... Maybe many people don't realise how much we went through in the army. In fact, just on Wednesday, I went for a tactical route march with my battalion. We trudged in muddy swamps and dense forests, walking for hours in the heavy downpour. We were soaked to the skin and thank God that my underwear was just slightly moist or else it will be super uncomfortable! Hee... We are the Singaporean guys! ;-) I don't know what's gotten into me but I just can't seem to get a suitable girl till now, sigh... I strongly believe I don't have the gift of celibacy, ok? Haha...

I need to get a new laptop too! Don't really have time to go purchase one, besides I need to do some research before deciding the brand and model. I don't even have microsoft office programs on this "partially resurrected" computer... hmmm... There seemed to be a hundred and one agenda on my list if you include those from my work. I even called up the army to get my SBO and helmet changed as they are falling apart after serving me for 10 years. Striking out one task after another on a seemingly endless list.

Frankly, I am still confused about the definition of the "Church" as intended by Christ Jesus. I had written in to a clergy in my church about my views and objections, and he had asked to meet up with me someday soon. I do strongly believe in Christ as the only Saviour of this world, our Lord and Redeemer. However, the reality of Christian disunity had led me to question the dwelling of the promised apostolic truth. How can we have infallible interpretation for an infallible Bible? What did Christ envision the Church to be when he talked about it in the Gospels? Why the constant preoccupation of eschatology in the Church when each individual's destiny is sealed upon the individual's death and that Christ hinted that we should not be speculating because we will never know (Matthew 24:36)?

Maybe the end times for the financial market is at hand, yah? Haha... Citibank shares plunged to an incredible USD $3.70 / share! It is totally chaotic and insanity out there. Nothing on this world is too powerful or important to fade away. A nagging feeling in me, wondering if Citibank stocks will be a good buy now for long term investment. Hmmm... anyway, that's about it!

God Bless,